little.lulu.

The worst way to wake up is through a phone call that something happened to one of your parents

Geezus. Luckily my mom is okay besides some minor bruises and cuts (hopefully) but talk about getting freaked the fuck out.

I often wonder how I’d react if something bad were to happen to my family. I think about death a lot. Sounds creepy but I do, probably because I am so terrified of it. A lot of ppl are okay with it, the natural cycle, and come to terms and peace with it, but I don’t feel I ever will, and I sometimes wonder how others are able to.

Anyways, I’m taking a nap and my home phone rings from a private number, which normally would be from my parents b/c no one rly even has that number; I contemplated not answering it b/c I was half asleep but I did and I hear a vaguely familiar voice telling me my mom has “fallen the through the deck” at the pool and I need to go help her.

Instant panic, not only b/c Idk wth falling through a deck looks like but b/c my mom means more to me than anything else in the world so I’m sprinting over there and not hearing anything (I live basically right next door to my parents and sisters - I know I know) She’s crying and banged up and assuring me she has nothing major wrong but she stepped on the outer ledge and the wood isnt that stable there and it just broke off so she fell down the rest of the steps and on the ground. Mostly I think she was just rly scared and I’m sure it hurt like hell. I’m going to go check on her in a while.

anyways, thank God she is okay, though I rly don’t like that phrase b/c I don’t think God is responsible for our well beings, so just, thankfully, she is okay.

mini panic over/